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  • Past, Present, Future

    As much as I can look back on my past and feel nostalgic, there is nothing more exciting than where I’m at now, and where I am going.

  • Magic has rules. Magic has consequences. To me, this is the only fair way to view the universe. Now, magic can be truly wonderful. But I think the fact that magic has rules serves both as a comfort and a warning.

  • Yes, I Am

    As I mentioned, I’m in what will probably be my last show on island! It’s called “Yes, I Am.” It’s with Playbuilders, Hawaii, and it’s about the experiences of LGBTQIA people. We wrote the script as an ensemble based on interviews with people in the community. (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, Queer, Intersex, Ally.) I’m pretty…

  • Shamanistic Theatre

      At tonight’s rehearsal, we discussed a little bit what we were doing in terms of theatre and its role in general society. Our director, Ron, mentioned that this process is rather shamanistic. And I’ve written here before about the link for me between spirituality, healing, and theatre. So, I’ve decided – no matter what…

  • Choice

    I don’t want to give myself the illusion that I have more choice than I do. For example, some people believe that before they were born, they chose to live on this earth and learn specific lessons. I have no way of knowing if this is true for myself. And while I do have a…

  • Be the Art

    You know that saying, “Be the change you want to see in the world?”I think I can inspire myself by modifying it to, “Be the art you want to see in the world.”

  • Bettina the Bard

    I’ve had this archetype in this head for a while, but I think it’s crystallizing now. I think I am a bard. There are other terms I like – troubadour, for instance – but then you get into distinctions of high class versus low class, composer or someone who sings someone else’s songs – and…

  • Drop vs. Ocean: Observer vs. Dancer

    In order to be inspiring, you must be inspired. In order to bring joy, you must find joy yourself. You cannot light another candle if you yourself are not lit. I think that what I understand as the Buddhist state of awareness, the “you” that is observing your mind, is kind of the opposite of,…

  • Things I Didn’t Know When I Was 19, And: A Candle Spell

    1. The sun helps. (Discovered some time in 2010.) 2. Exercise really helps. (Discovered 2010-2011.) 3. Writing things down and talking things out helps. (2011-2012ish.) 4. Hot baths help. (Sometime in 2010. Thanks, Lexxy.)   And now, a spell while blowing out a candle: May this fire burn away my bitterness, and may it be…

  • Procreation and Creation

    It occurred to me tonight that what I want to do is create something beautiful. It got me thinking to the analogy between that and creating a physical child. Creating a physical child is kind of unique because there’s something of you and the other person who created the child in them. I thought to…